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two more nightmares
i live in a house among other houses, they are all very tall, and rather dated. the rooms are small and dark, crowded and ineffectual. my closest neighbour (no more than five meters) has two young daughters (5 and 9?). as i look out of the window i see them playing on a balustrade-less balcony. i think nothing of it. later, i look out of the window again. with a sickening feeling in me i see the older (?) il alone on the ledge. she vaguely tries to balance on a small block of wood, then steps off the ledge. i instantly know she will be killed, and that the isght will be more than i can bear. i turn awaywhen she is about to hit the ground (i think someone is with me, possibly girlfiend, i seem to recall preventing someone from seeing this). as i look down at the girls corpse, i notice her sister's body is down there too. as i look further, i notice two other bodies in my won garden. there are strange clothes near the corpses, on piece apiece. in a state of mounting agitation i try to find the phone to call for help. when i find it, it seems to be made of reinforced cardboard, and just as effective. various memebers of my family (i remember sister specifically) choose this precise moment to talk to me of something rahter dramatic, but nowhere near as bad as what i have witnessed. i shout at themsomething i realise is hurtful, and become hysteric. i never leave the house.
i wake up. it is barely 11 pm.
second dream that night: in a derelict school. no windows. grey carpet with child-sized coloured footprints. i am in the school with various people from my past. our activities: find random people, beat them up and execcute them mob-style. if they run away, we run them down in our car on the school ground.
no question here, it is gta. i remeber thinking it in the dream, which is odd, since i have never played the game.
finished pater laius. on to yes, by bernhard, a favourite of agota kristof's. i can see why.
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